I once got on facebook at least once a day to check on my friends. Now that I moved to a different school, it had become more frequient. I wanted to make sure my old friends from a town over had a way to contact me in some sort of way…

Now… I don’t care if any of them even thinks about me once… 

I can’t just sit here and just watch people from somewhere else that only talk to me once a month about something so irrelevent to anything. I can’t just stare at the constant changes that I have no idea what is happening. I just can’t stand watching myself be forgotten in a years time. Had my best friends moved on and made new ones? That they just threw me out of the bus just because I wasn’t by their side everyday they entered school? I tried to talk to them. I tried getting together with them as much as I could. They, at first, even tried to find ways for me to stay at their school. Now, it is like I’m just a past memory that they can just throw out.

many of these people have been my friends for years. Years! We were practically family! And now we barely know who each other are.

Is it my fault that I can’t be with them? 

Did I push them away?

Is it my fault?